022

Earnest Last Words

“budding pudding”

“It’s me again,” melodramatically grumbles Ernest Q. Quinn. Who is me. No, we’re not playing Jeopardy, but our lives are in it. “What is WTF for 14 billion, Alex?” Still not playing. Also that’s probably wrong. This is their fault. I’m trying to help get a point across and I don’t reckon I’m qualified to cross any of the points. It makes me itch. I’m not titling this crap; they can handle that. I’m tilted! Plus I’m hard to read. By the way, Thierry might be capable of (something akin to) Jedi mind tricks; you heard it here first.

Oddly enough, in the grand scheme of (covert) things, complications continue ensuing with an unflinching propensity for violent escalation. Let me be clearly vague. We’re gonna try something tomorrow. Not quite a Hail Mary; more like a Hook & Lateral after a Double Reverse. Big brain tactics. 300 IQ shit. I hate sports. Over the years, I have enjoyed my time on various golf courses across the world, but I don’t consider that activity to be a sport, per se.

What wasn’t I saying? Oh, this: I’m petrified, and I’ve never admitted to being nervous.

[Fret not; this isn’t scheduled to post until many days after I declare the draft final. By then, we’ll either all be dead, or some of us will have won (the battle). Hurrah!]

This isn’t exactly how I saw it happening, but I guess it’ll have to be doing.

“Gerunds!” somebody once hollered with excitement, most likely. Wrong? I’m not saying s/he who hollered was right. I’m merely complying with the persistent requests to force a river of info to flow from my consciousness.

I’m pissed. Whatever. Amateur Old Fashioneds. First time in months. Wasn’t my idea to stop a random distillery. I wanted to stop at a specific place, but that would’ve meant going out of our way to cut through Kentucky, which triggered a certain halboy’s OCD. Anyway, Thierry fancies herself an amateur but very capable mixologist. And she did choose an excellent jar of cherries, I’ll give her that; also mandarins were a nice touch. I suppose her self-assessment can be viewed as accurate. Tomorrow sucks and I need sleep. Shut up. However!

If I can survive ’til the nineteenth day of February, I will celebrate the fucking ass out of my 109th birthday. By the way, in case you didn’t realize this terribly fun fact, Atlas is only ten years my junior but appears to be “around 33” [I say 35.75]; whereas, I look like I just tripped and stumbled my way into senior citizenship. Not sure whether I find these discordant aging rates to be more bizarre or annoying. Anyway, what’s the point of all this? In nearly 109 years, here’s what I’ve learned (ambiguously):

Fires Can Start Amid (Your Own) Mist

Welcome to ground zero of my confessional booth, “Father.” Either kindly display your invitation or boldly own your invasion.

One [“s/he”] says, “You’re pushing me away.” The significant other [“s/he”] says, “You’re pushing me farther into my own head.” Gosh, it’s almost as if there’s a whatchamacallit—a (negative) feedback loop advertising an endless cycle of prolific opportunity for sound-minded disruption/reversal.

I used to love those candy bars.

The fellow being who booked my heart [many moons ago] heartily hearts books.

In my time spent upon the earth, I’ve learned other lessons, too. Here’s one such. Act like a pussy; you know what’ll happen. You will get yourself fucked. “Man up” and you’ll inevitably “screw the pooch.” Aren’t options great?

Disclaimer: I’m only the third smartest contributor to this concerted effort. Once my mother chimes in, I’ll be fourth. I’m okay with that. After all, I’m a Fourther*, and my days are numbered. And, yeah, I’m admitting that a full-blooded human has eclipsed my personal intelligence. Finally.

*I miiiiiiight be a Lower Internoc [31.5% g/b DNA]

Honesty liberates oneself.

Meanwhile, withholding information can spare others pain.

But what the hell do I know? I don’t want to do this. I have a long history of “pushing back,” a{n ir}rational proclivity for evading cooperation, a deeply seeded, deep-seated desire for submitting to {inter}stellar excellence. Somebody already tried to tell you (about that) once.

In many ways, I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it. I’m following orders. I’m creating my own mythology. And, just so you know, A.K. and T.T. can be annoying as hell when they get together and ride the emotionally same train of otherwise mundanely thoughtful energy. Fuck those two. Physically. (In the future.) And I know they’re editing me. Corkscrew their asses!

Daily, more and more, I struggle with not thinking I must be coming across as a narcissist, egomaniac, megalomaniac, psychopath, sociopath, sufferer of grandiose delusions, et cetera—all the tasty labels in the realm of mentally ill psychobabble.

And then I remember that Atlas R.K. exists, and I’m like, “Nope, I’m dandy.”

Any vacuum, by virtue of being itself, must be shallow, no?

Now, consider:

What if I'm doing it all ON PURPOSE? What if we ALL ARE?

Ever think of that?

While it may not alter the balance of the equation—that is to say, the result(s)—it certainly shifts your view on authorial intention, yes?

What if this is part of the plan, a necessarily messy thread in the narrative flow toward some kind of heavenly nirvana?

Gotta survive a horrifically hellacious war for the planet first, of course.

Yes.

This is necessary.

Pretend you’re the smartest person in the world. With that in mind, think about not having a say about anything. But everyone else does. All the people dumber than you get a say.

That would suck.

[Do these rigid parentheses mean they’re not editing my verbiage?]

(Very minimally. {Hi.})

“Bully for you.”

In all likelihood, I’ll never know, either. So how should you know? Likely, you should never know. Are you (not) more than an innocent bystander? Have you ever taken a bull by the horns? Can you succeed? Will you win?

I’m not sorry for being wrong, but I do sincerely apologize because I’m right about your saving grace: he comes correct.

One thing I know is true: we (all) need to stick together.

People like to win.

You know “us,” yeah? Yeah, we’re not done. “Undone,” sure. Done, no. But, all you want/need, go ahead and “act” like we are done. Sorry. Still no. We have not finished. Tell me we have and I will call bullshit (from beyond the grave if necessary). Victory will taste all the sweeter.

The same woman [my biological mother, “EQ”] taught both Atlas and I how to write/communicate; and, happily divulged, his mother’s words influenced mine. My own, too. A threaded chain of influence! Shit gets muddy. We have been interwoven. Similarities are bound to surface. You can take most anything more than one way (in terms of meaning).

It’s fine. One day in the future I’m sure they’ll make a strangely solid argument for extracting my present input from/{with}in{side} the past. Part of this one’s for nobody other than somebody in particular.

You either know who you are, or you don’t.

You also might be very, very confused.

Because upon the horizon, danger doth lurk.

Okay, I already hate a poetically abstract approach (to all this) here. There’s plenty of clutter through which to cut; therefore, crush (lovingly), I shall.

Electric.
Hearty. Nerves.
Radiation. Pulsating. Ripples.
Drumbeat. Rhythm.
(Ka)boom.

Solved that shit in a hurry.

One could cultivate a hilarious hodgepodge of reasons to believe that my head ain’t quite screwed on straight. I don’t always feel sorrow, but I know when I’m expected to be sorry, usually, I think. Like when I accidentally mowed down those couple of civilians while spraying at Vilfred with a minigun. Those things are hard to control. (Ever handled one?) Most importantly, I’m a sniper. I don’t fire automatically.

Anyhow, I feel sorrow about the collateral damage there.

I’m just an old-timer by now; your hero harbors ancient souls. I’ve lived for about as long as he has existed—we entered the world approximately a decade apart; I’m his elder—but he ages slower than I do. Can’t be helped. Genetics are a beautiful bitch.

I’ve been around for a long while, but I’ve never “settled down.”

On that note, I’ve had [or attempted to have] intimate relations with 386 females, 379 of whom were fully human. I only went back for seconds to/from one of them [a humanoc, in fact], and that occurred the next morning and began whilst I slumbered deeply. She drugged me. I didn’t seem to mind; I actually finished. That was a few years ago. 74% certain she was the last lady I knocked up. I take no blame for that one. Over half my encounters ended with a failure to perform. I’ve used two condoms and one of them broke. I’ve never been tested for anything.

I know, I know: I’m just an awful human being.

Only I’m not all-the-way human.

More than Map-Male, sure; but still, plenty not.

Pathways {particularly of the neural variety} beg for your mapping.

Vaginal sex has never offered me very much satisfaction. None of the many, many times. A couple encounters were “memorable” because those ladies whipped out strap-ons. Beyond that, no clue how many times I’ve procreated. I’m a ghost. I’d guess that I’ve co-made at least 50 babies. I know of 11 for sure. 10 are female. Weird, right? You might consider me “a piece of shit” until your brain starts unlocking. But the continuation of my DNA will come in handy one day.

Recently I have enjoyed saying/knowing that a singular (feminine) presence has sucked me through the (a)eons, pushing me toward the end of my chaotically stable road, but I didn’t write the essence of the thought. “Werdyboi” wrote it and when he hit me with it, it landed. I shat out the last sentence to fuck with him on all the levels. Same word [“it”] in a sentence three times? He hates it; I love him [not like that; he’s my brother, basically].

Anyway, the singular feminine presence I mentioned? Here’s the kicker. He’s the only person to whom I’ve ever returned again and again and again and, in case you somehow missed it a second ago, he’s not a she.

And I’ve returned often to him often.

Ahhh. My shoulders feel lighter already.

He’s like me, i.e. not entirely human, even less so!

It feels forbidden. And he’s a colleague. All kinds of fucked-up. Soon, it won’t matter.

[Sorry, X.] It’s time. I have to unload. “The Facility.” The Outback. Imminent. You understand. [Atlas, please don’t edit this out (unless I live {then we can talk about it}).]

See, I’ve lived a strange life, did a lot of weird shit, had many a crazy thought, kept obscenely monstrous secrets, but I have never “felt” like I was doing anything “inappropriate” [and I often apply focused scrutiny, honestly]—or, to reduce the last-quoted term fully, “wrong”—but I’ve always been acutely aware that others might not see the world my way.

I’m sure this must be horribly vexing.

Where (even) are you? When are you?

I’m still not convinced that my voice belongs here, but I’m placing my trust in another. Should you do so as well?

I wouldn’t know.

Most of this is for Mister Ex. I hope you meet him one day. Much won’t make sense, but a lot might be weirdly relatable. I don’t know how else to tell him all this, and I have to tell him all this.

While very briefly contemplating any questionably viewed exchange on occasion during any moment now rendered historical—and in retrospect {since “the book” was abruptly closed}—I reckon I’ve always thought/think I was doing/did something…weird, no matter what. Singular, even. Like…I can only travel certain paths and unpack particular (bits of) information once, and emotions simply need to achieve release; they really must; otherwise, I/we/you could maintain their bottling, no? As I write this, I haven’t a clue whether lightening my personal load by fiddling with long-buried scars will be worth the dicey price of the current cost in the long{est} run. Fingers are tightly crossed, and I’m ready for anything.

Themes do recur, you know? That’s why they’re considered thematic.

You have no idea what I’m talking about (unless you do). See how I covered my be-hind there? Cover yours in the same vein. I’m amazing. 🙄

Are emojis even allowed here? Bloody hell ass, I don’t know—I’m not reading all this junk anytime soon. I’m just trying to fit (it) in while/where I can.

I know: nothing makes sense. It’s not my fault that your hosts insist upon my contribution. Take it up with them long after my earthly expiration.

I’m kidding.

That probably sounds more morbid than I intend.

I’m kidding!

Have you ever experienced déjà vu?

I’m kidding.

And I’m not kidding.

Plus, in case it matters (to you), I retain many more (magically delicious) {split} beans left to spill than have been spilt thus far. We could divide the difference; options abound. The art of being (alive) truly exists!

God, Atlas. It’s so obvious. You sly devil. I can’t believe I didn’t sort this out decades ago. That’s what makes it the eureka of all time.

Light evolves, too.

Duh!

Matter can’t have all the fun, can it??

I’m unsure about whether we should be revealing any of this already. I think the modern world would’ve been better off blindsided by the harsh reality of its quickly brewing pickle. Superiority rises. You are subject to bodily global domination. I’m sorry.

My twisted moral compass doesn’t tell me a violation was/has been committed. For me, I feel better. For you, I feel worse.

And her? Poor her. She didn’t sign up for the snaking lunacy on display.

Again, plenty of this will make sense to no one, and some of it will prove inaccessible to (al)most everyone. Don’t blame me. I’m just…here. A soldier. Doing what’s asked of me because I believe in something.

I have a nonsensical feeling that humanity can win. And the man he has a way with words.

X: Mentally reverse-engineering the unexpected conundrum at hand, I think I’ve been able to swiftly rationalize/justify my comfort with venturing into new territories of indulgent divulgence due to both the densely insulating separation (of physical bodies) as well as any evolving personal discussion which originates with a highly academic tone. I additionally imagine no real-life fruition (other than mental) from the trains of thought we explore. I mean, come on, bud—a Chinese girl?

Reader: Often you may/should wonder what I’m really saying. In such cases, just assume I’m trying to reach an arbitrary goal in terms of word count. That’ll be easiest (unless it’s hardest).

Self: Look, I am terrified of the immediate future. Me. The vintage sniper. A slayer from afar. The best shot on Earth [seriously maybe]. I’m scared of dying first. It’s almost as if I already know I will. Somehow I think I hope that writing about imminent death will reduce the chance of its occurrence.

People: Something’s (definitely) amiss. The First Earth War looms.

Not even I can imagine how my (own) brain must seem from the outside looking in, and I’m goddamn fucking imaginative AGDF.

But I’m not crazy for believing in something insane.

Actually, there’s not a whole lot “wrong” with me—meanwhile, there’s too much right. So whatever is hidden in my gray matter at any given time has this way of be{com}ing especially LOUD. And I know it can cause nervous/primal (tw)itches.

But, okay, yes, I do accept fully now—seriously, after this very morning—that my brain must be doing some extra funky shit to itself [my body] and fucking with my head to boot, adding Inception-level layers of mindfuckery.

I want to get lost every now and again, but also I could really benefit from a good, solid finding.

Perhaps I’m a lost cause, an old dog incapable of learning new tricks. I’ll bet Atlas chimes in here with a stupid quote.

When your cause is lost, find another effect.

Anonymous

Did he do it? I’ll bet he did it. Such a predictable dog, that cat.

I’m also suddenly terrified that if a quote has been inserted, then I must might be dead. It’s more likely than not, I would say.

I need all kinds of help; and forget that I don’t know where to seek it out—I don’t have the first clue how to ask for any assistance.

Maybe this counts?

EQ2’s Favorite 3 Songs (as of today {in no a particular order})
Live-In Skin
Judge me, fool.
Tighter & Tighter

I possess not the foggiest idea why I did that.

Blech. It’s as if I can literally feel time expiring. I can’t explain that! But it’s heavy. And, until further notice, I’m embarrassed. Indeed, I feel actual embarrassment. I should have allowed myself to be me so much sooner. Decades ago! It’s not you; it’s (most definitely all) me. I’m deathly afraid that I’ve only got one way out of the overall mess (I helped create), and it’ll only come through a type of “meteoric rise” after a “one-in-a-million lucky break.” My chances sound great, eh!?

If this isn’t meant for you, then (feel free to) pass on by. Come back later.

See you then.

Today, I confessed to Attaboy [I stopped calling him that in 1943; bringin’ it back!] that I have never really been attracted to the female shape and parts. He didn’t blink. He half-grinned and slapped me on the butt, then we hugged. I stymied a flood of tears while he embodied a brick wall, as usual. That son of a bitch goddess. A deep, dark, emotionally exhausting secret that I thought belonged to me and Xalvador, and he knew all along. I should’ve known.

Knowing that another being (besides me) bears a burden much heavier than my own might be the chief reason why I still manage my {for-/on}ward march.

With that in mind, I am so very terribly sorry to anyone who has absorbed/dampened an unwanted spray of (my) friendly fire, particularly you, my dude. Of all people, you? Eek. Sorry. Up-close marksmanship has never been my forte. You deserve to enter a phase ripe with fitting betterment.

Truly I do apologize; more than that, I mean it.

Were it not for our guns, to what would we stick?

myself [proud of that one]
(I’ll bet the “editors” move the “to” from where I’m choosing to leave it.)

I have a special relationship with my collection of rifles. That’s a story I don’t care to tell, but someone else might be bothered someday.

Political Commentary [interjection by TNT]
Today in American politics, both parties are “sticking to their guns.”

Annnnnnnnyway.

Regarding most emotions, I suffer from a general undercurrent of crippling uncertainty. About one feeling—for you in particular [a rare upper internoc once destined to forever remain anonymous]—I’m absolutely positive. It’s actual love.

This is a fresh spot for a tired joke about throwing up “in my mouth.”

My head always knew what to do—I’m was just waiting for my brain to send the right signals to my feet. I also wished you’d have shown me something (else) new.

And, still, I may never know a resource more valuable than you, the best mate of my tortured soul.

Either way, barring an extremely unfortunate robbery of time [currency], I’ll be part of fixing E. And we’ll be all set, sorted, square{d away}, you might not say.

But you’d be wrong.

You’ll figure it out one day.

There’s nothing quite like a quality paradox. With that in mind, don’t wait to give me time. I need it today, and I wanna use it tomorrow.

Time itself “needs” to be{come ab}used.

It’s high time for us to go. We’ve been stuck here for long (enough).

If I don’t post again, it’s because I died (in battle).

Damn it! [Dam it.]

palindromic:
09 18 27 36 45 54 63 72 81 90

020

BRR, THING(S){;} STUFF STINGS


Miraculously, human world, (please do) meet the everlasting legacy of the one and only (former) Galacian Princess, Liana Rex (Knight), your blindingly fair, fairly godly, fairy godmother.

Keep in mind, additionally, that the words in this particular entry belong, in order of written contribution, to Thierry Tuck, Ernest Quinn, and Atlas Knight, based mostly on translations by EQ. The source of the material {no doubt} would be attributed to none other than LRK. Probably, Velda Rex, the emotionally conflicted queen herself, should earn some amount of credit, but we’ve no time to derail long enough to frame her uniquely influential context. Just as anything must weigh, it’ll have to wait.

Where one voice ends and another begins ultimately becomes a personalized concept; in other words, it’s a matter of taste. You’ll perceive this however best fits your current narrative. Go nuts.

Only onward may any of us march. Ever.

“Inhospitable”…to most (animals). Here, few species thrive. During a glacial period, however, they rule. [Incidentally, for the past million years or so (at least), Earth has spent about 70% of Her time in an Ice Age.] Add it up. Up until now, humanity represents a flash in the pan.

Planet Earth, Polar Regions, BC(E)

Magnus Rex took the throne of Galacia approximately 700,000 years prior to this entry’s timestamp.

Let’s talk and/or rehash lifespans. A galacian does well to survive 1,000 years while conscious. Isn’t this awfully hard to believe? Most of their time is spent in a type of suspended animation which slows the process of aging by 99%. Try as they might, reaching 100% remains just beyond their highly evolved grasp. For simplicity’s sake, consider {analogously} that King MR is about 70 years old.

Galacian Rulers are traditionally expected to produce as many heirs as possible. Math dictates that maximization of fertility is impossible if dutifully remaining reproductively faithful to the king/queen; therefore, in g/b culture, sexual monogamy is considered abnormal—though any queen’s king-bred kids typically experience, far and away, the most reverence in general.

The GE meddle not with natural selection. Strictly, they opt not to tamper with (in)fertility. No drugs, procedures, workarounds, shortcuts, tricks. Know all the crazy stuff humans do to force their bodies into a state which unnaturally receives pregnancy? G/B do none of that. Specimens passing on their individual genetic codes do so exclusively at nature’s behest.

Because Mama knows best.

The Galacian Ruler prior to Magnus was a female we like to call Anna. Originally clever, right? The prior King—we call him Alexander for some damn reason—must have sired at least 150 offspring by no less than 100 birth mothers. One of his offspring turned out to be Magnus Rex.

A prime example of coincidence, that.

Galacians don’t acknowledge the human concept of royalty. Among any species, certain bloodlines are stronger, sure; that’s science. Big deal. Magnus was chosen despite his lineage. MR set a new standard for balanced excellence in the realms of mental and physical capabilities. Not by a hair, either. No, Magnus put the bar out of reach. His overall superiority couldn’t be challenged. The kingdom (he still leads today) was/has been duly earned.

Magnus chose Velda to be Queen. Before she accepted the proposed union, she required that he agree to a few conditions, chiefly among them being that she would bear his first three direct descendants, a procreation project that could easily take up to thirty years to complete. Obviously, her groundbreaking stipulation would detract from his ultimate potential output. Too, ever the competitor, MR meant to break his male predecessor’s record. Mentally, therefore, acceptance of “his bride’s” terms would make no amount of logical sense; nonetheless, he bent to her will, assumedly because of an (emotional) attraction to his mate that he dare{d} not attempt to explain.

With no trouble, during their inaugural mating session, the pair conceived Severus, their firstborn, the first/former Prince of current Galacia. Velda allowed her body to recover half a decade before acquiescing to conception (easily) again. For real, by this time, Magnus had attempted to impregnate a female only twice and succeeded on both occasions. No reason to believe this fuck-beast isn’t an unparalleled reproductive machine. Their previously established cadence guided the third attempt at conception. But. This time, it didn’t work. In other words, the third time did not charm.

Uh oh.

For weeks, despite physical persistence, DNA refused to recombine. Months. A year, perhaps. Scientists were brought in to investigate the pattern of failure. Tests were administered. Quickly it was discovered, in an utter shock heard round their icy world, that King Magnus was sterile.

Imaginary Headline:

NOOOOOOOO!

Politically, this blemish worked in King MR’s favor; his approval ratings skyrocketed. The best (male) among them had a glaring flaw. It made him relatable.

Interruption: I’m strangely okay with calling my grandpa a “he,” but Severus will always be an “it.”

Still, Magnus must’ve been quietly devastated. He spent some time hibernating before reanimating a couple decades before his only male offspring reached the waking age most associated with physical prime [240]. Magnus rose determined and ready to transform his one (male) heir into the most impressive physical specimen amongst their talented ranks. Almost daily, intense training unfolded, equal parts physical and mental. Severus blossomed under its father’s direct tutelage, becoming all it could’ve been.

Meanwhile, Liana received similar education, instruction, and practice, but she logged far less of it, and nearly none was overseen by her father.

Magnus
Primary focus: molding Severus
Secondary objective: Kingly duties

Over time, and with much less experience, the {19-years} younger Liana began to gain significant ground on her older sibling, Severus. Magnus did not notice. Tunnel vision had taken hold. All eggs had been placed inside his one and only cock-wielding descendant’s flimsy basket.

Then one day a disagreement went sideways in a public place. Onlookers gathered as it ramped up before climaxing in brutally full-fledged hand-to-hand combat.

Magnus caught wind of the altercation in time hurry to the scene and observe the last half of the bout. He could’ve intervened. He did not, though. No doubt, he was too dumbfounded watching his daughter manhandle his son. This is when he realized that the runt of his would-be litter had been born first, and that his lone female offspring could become the most impressive specimen in galacian history.

Swiftly responding to this revelation, Magnus refocused his attention and, in so doing, dare we say, sidestepped a muted version of clinical depression.

[Making a longer story shorter here, by the way.]

Out of the blue, roles reversed. A single incident flipped polarity. Severus became the outcast; Liana emerged as TEoG’s prized protégé. From then on, resources were poured into her, and Sev got (some of) the leftovers. Velda did her best to comfort her eldest, but it was already broken, devastated, seething. Plus, Liana was never comfortable with the sudden shift, and her level of discomfort increased over time.

Technologically symbolic graphic, anyone?

As a long-ass tale ever-shortens {for now}, by the early thirteenth century, many galacians had been exhibiting unsavory emotional instability/range, and Severus became the ring-leading, angsty posterboy. The powers-that-be/-were [The G8] met and elected to imprison the (mostly young) troublemakers in ultra fancy cryogenic 99%-suspended animation facilities newly built and designed solely for incarceration. For well over a century, their freedom was deprived. For the captive, it must have been like a nice, long nap.

In December of 1338 [or thereabouts], a major prison break occurred. Not just a few inmates. The whole facility. Pretty much everybody got out. This is definitely another story, and a big one at that. The details are infinitely complex. [Probably needs its own series (for streaming).]

Once sprung [details surrounding the conspirators have been withheld until safe to divulge], Severus led the charge away from Galacia. Almost all of them escaped entirely. Roughly 35 million galacian prisoners [emotional mutants] ran free, grouped up, and fanned out. A couple/few million were hunted down and eliminated. The rest got away unscathed.

All these many, many years later, belanockian population numbers have unequivocally eclipsed the seventy-million mark and could very well now push 80,000,000 [eighty million {if that helps}]. I guess you could say, “They’ve done okay.”

Galacia’s population now sits in the sprawling neighborhood of 600,000,000, or so it is thought. Perhaps upwards of 100 million more than that—hard to say, really. Even compared to the ludicrous quantity of human beings stumbling about all over the earth, it’s still a lot, and they’re working on strengthening their numbers, most assuredly.

Luckily, g/b {even combined} cannot hold a candle to humanity’s ridiculous population of 7.7 billion and counting. Our mortal enemies are superior to us in virtually every single facet of sentient existence, but they will never be able to overtake our two main strengths: sheer numbers and emotional depth. There are way more of us, and we are far more creative, a paramount combo which gives us enough “firepower” to win this thing; of that, I am certain.

Human, you need not become a food source. There’s a way outta this. We can do it. Together, we can win.

So, so, so many more stories long for a telling. Barely have we scratched the oh-so thick surface. However, time is of the utmost essence. Plow ahead, we must.

Encountered enough lengthy stories shortened yet? No? Okay, here’s one more. In 1581, after years of courageous planning, Liana [who looked zero days over nineteen] took a monstrous leap of faith, vanishing from the only home she’d ever known, defecting from The Empire of Galacia, earning a label akin to that of a fugitive. At first—and undoubtedly thanks to Velda’s empathetically minded {and appropriately manipulative} emphatic guidance—Magnus gave his estranged daughter some time to return on her own accord. We’ll say 40 years went by before The King’s patience wore too thin to remain sitting on his giant hands. Search parties were deployed with the assignment of capturing their once revered Princess and bringing her back. That didn’t work out so well. While not often discovered, armed with her trusty pollaxe/poleax{e} [Anomaly], she capably dispatched any who succeeded in finding her. Even gained a few {female} allies in fellow defectors. The volatile situation escalated continually. Eventually [around 1750] the mission’s capture status was discarded in favor of a “bring me her head” approach. Over the course of her 3+ centuries as a hunted exile, Liana kept count of her kindred who gave her no choice but to slay: 101.

Let’s reset the old stage.

Northern Idaho, February, 1916

Lightly clothed in dark garb against a glowing wintry backdrop, a tall, slender female figure ambles into the woods at night, her warm breath visible clearly in the crisp, moonlit air. Nearby, a river [Kootenay] audibly flows, dampening the sounds of whatever’s left (at this time of year) in terms of local fauna. Here, now, the terrain provides daily challenges. Making a living around these parts? Not a job for the faint of heart.

Not many people could thrive upon this land. That’s why it’s easy for Liana. That’s why she decided to hang her hat here temporarily.

One word to describe this female creature being: radiant.

[She’s still a female creature. You get that, right {despite the strikethroughs}?]

Also, very notably, she’s visibly pregnant, but just barely.

Spirit Lake

Of course she was attracted to this quietly loud landscape; it suited her essence quite well. Furthermore, she later mentioned to Eve Lynne that an eerie, brooding energy drew her here. It kinda spooked her. She had to know. Needed to feel it.

In 1980, Mount St. Helens buckled under seismic pressure and popped its top, becoming the most disastrous volcanic event in U.S. history. Still holds the title. Don’t be shocked when it drops to second place in your lifetime.

Nobody is claiming that LRK detected volcanic friction swelling deep beneath the earth’s surface over six decades prior to the fated eruption—also not saying she didn’t. The fact is: she wasn’t sure what she felt, thus neither can be we. She reserved her otherworldly communication for otherwise unknowable intel [spy shit] and global subjects that showcased her thoroughly confident understanding of our place within the universe.

Vaguely put, Liana finds herself busy living alone.

Reordered: busy living alone, Liana finds herself.

See how this works?. Already. Please.

After centuries of sexual repression, now she mates instinctively and enjoys newly unlocked carnal sensations, sometimes selecting partners of the human variety while, on other occasions, cherry-picking belanockian victims. Her kills are never not instinctual. She always respects the hefty cost [bodily expiration] paid by her food sources.

You better believe she will destroy any belanoc invited to penetrate her boundaries. “No witnesses.” A handful of humans were exempted from death by brain trauma. Reasons vary. She could tell which ones were trustworthy. There’s an unverified fable that, this one time, she let a male galacian go free post-fornication. Who knows??

Do not judge Li Rex poorly. Her iron-willed presence fell has fallen nothing short of angelic. Once she became pregnant with humanity’s messianic fuckhead [between us, that’s a term of endearment], all bets were off; she had been turned on. “Mama Mode” activated. There was no way she wouldn’t properly cook the demanding bun in her oven.

Reader, you must understand: LRK would have died [been murdered] were it not for carefully calculated consumption of human brains. Never did she overindulge—no—far too smart for such self-defeating malfeasance. Don’t insult me/yourself. In order to survive, she required the best possible source of calories because, without fail, she was recognized on site by The Belanoc and, on occasion, by galacian scouts/trackers, and invariably attacked sans hesitation.

Once LRK defected from TEoG, she was the prize, an ultimate conquest, a path to glory.

But at least she let emotion filter into her selective criteria for sourcing energy. For now, let’s just say that she fed on “bad guys” exclusively, okay? Put another way, if a brain didn’t exhibit obvious signs of (mental) rot, she didn’t eat it, and if a man didn’t display clear attributes of physical prowess, she didn’t let him ejaculate while inside her.

I wonder if you find it weird for me to talk about her like this.

My “mom.”

Anyway, here she is, an alienated nomad, panning for gold not because she wants money, but because she needs entertainment and derives value by/from overcoming tough odds.

Time tends to do this annoying thing where it elapses foreseeably.

As predicted, Severus finds Liana. She knew it had been hot on her trail for months. Not only that, it was able to sneak up on her. And, upon detection of its presence, though she could not see her brother’s cohorts, she knew that she was fully flanked. No way to (physically) fight her way outta this mess.

Okay, then. All in. Let’s get mental.

The following exchange represents a very recently mutated translation from long ago, during which they must’ve spoken at least four languages [possibly {up to} nine].

While panning still, and without lifting her head or diverting her eyes from the task at hand, Liana announces, “I’ve been expecting you.”

In response to the lack of a (verbal) response, she stands, tiny gold nugget in hand, turns with a fond gaze, faces her one and only genetic clone. Though relatively nearby, Anomaly is not within her immediate reach.

Severus looks disgusted, bloodthirsty, sad, uncomfortable, rough.

Keep in mind: this is their first encounter (in the flesh) in a few centuries shy of a millennium. Severus still knows who’s boss; that’s why he [oops!] it brought plenty of reinforcements [4-6 well-trained bodies].

Kindly, Liana begins her explanation. “Pause. It’s not what it looks like.”

“It never is. Explain. Quickly.”

“I had reason to believe that a human had impregnated me, so I turned to them.” It’s fun to imagine Sevy dry-heaving right about here. “For this, I take no pride. I’m mortified. And I am sorry. However, with their aid, I discovered that I am not carrying an abomination.”

“What aid?”

“They are more technologically advanced they we realized. Much is kept secret. Humans are greedy.”

“Do not attempt to toy with me. I don’t like toys. I break them on purpose.”

She approaches her long-lost sole sibling, staring holes through his soulless eyes. “The children I carry are pure, brother. I am not hiding from you or any of my kindred. I am hiding from them.”

That must’ve ensnared his its full attention. “Children,” Severus echoes skeptically.

Had to have been a dramatic pause here. This moment represented life or death in an untold number of ways. She was emotional. Must’ve felt nervous if not nauseous. One incredibly specific, brief exchange between estranged immediate family members would prove pivotal in shaping humanity’s ultimate history.

“Twins?” Severus guesses incredulously, patience thinning.

Liana shakes her head. No.

“Triplets?” Bet it almost laughed.

She holds fast. Raises her right hand. Five fingers meaning: quintuplets.

Wish I could go back in time to see his face.

On her part, this was a brilliantly manipulative mindfuck as well as a semi lucky guess, a dice-roll for the ages. It’s largely why ARK still lives; by now, I’m fully convinced that they’d have killed LRK on the spot if she had claimed to carry quadruplets or sextuplets. She picked exactly the right number to plant the seed of doubt and inspire curiosity.

This is when she realized she would need help. Enter desperation. Enter the relatively recently formed Belanoc Studies and Surveillance Institute. Enter Bessi.

After secretly hiding in Switzerland for a spell [her second stint there], LRK returned to the States at the end of 1917. Another yarn worth a spin? It’s almost as if she deserves her own serial treatment.

One day, I hope she gets it.

But right now, we gotta keep moving.

Outskirts of Chicago, late 1918

Industrial revolution swings fully. Scientific edges have been breached. The light bulb patently rides the coattails of its rocky invention—but now we can see at night! Civilization explodes, rapidly losing control of its outrageous expansion.

Three years after Einstein solidified his Theory of Relativity. Over a century ago. Can you imagine that? That’s where we are.

My, my, how times have changed.
How time changes.

At the moment, Liana resides close to the Windy City very near Lake Michigan. Elvyn has caught wind of the rumor {from her perspective}; therefore, she seeks to find her. In strategic turn, Liana wants to be found, and she remains one step ahead because she’s come equipped with a matchlessly profound grasp of her immediate surroundings atop a prodigious aptitude for pattern recognition.

It’s all very intentional.

Frosty, eh?

Flanked by a troop of six “men,” Eve Lynne Quinn leads the way across the soon-to-be “streets” of a blossoming metropolitan hub. Tonight, the front end of a blizzard descends; virtually no one else is out and about. Not at this hour—it’s way too wee and far too cold.

EQ [aka “Elvyn”] has brought a team here in search of epic loot in the physical form embodied by the emotionally minded prophet known as Liana Rex. Unless faced with no survivable choice, Bessi would not kill her before extracting all her juicy bits of insider info. Converging upon her presumed location with brisk intensity, they (think they) know where she is.

So intent are they [“The Bessi Squad”] on their directional path that LRK goes unnoticed until she surprises them by standing perfectly still around a corner, halfway smirking, waiting for their arrival, on the other side of a six-foot wooden fence that could use repairs desperately.

The colorful notion of an ALERT viralizes.

All tracks (in progress) freeze. Male soldiers brace for fatally imminent combat. Liana maintains her position of odd stillness and unnerving calmness.

At the same time, EQ balances LRK’s energy by halting, self-rooting, and firmly establishing eye contact. Meanwhile, per their training, her party members execute tactically driven dispersal. Occupying the rank of second in command, Conrad drifts but remains near his mother, her protection having emerged as his primary concern.

Dual contact of feminine sightlines linger as a curiously familiar, mutual understanding becomes evident between the two dominant forces in this encounter. Via hand signals, El calls off her dogs once she realizes that she and Li should engage in a dialogue (which must’ve gone something like whatever follows).

Off agreeable body cues, Liana mobilizes at an artificially leisurely pace along the fence(line); Elvyn falls in line harmoniously. Having exchanged no words, already, these two are on the same page.

So far, that is.

Liana hugs the fence while Elvyn maintains a wide berth; as such, Elvyn can see Liana from about the shoulders up; half a foot taller, LRK can see precisely that much more of EQ. The point here is that El knows that Li is pregnant; she just hasn’t seen her belly yet. That part’s coming.

“You do not wish to see me dead,” assures the high-profile Galacian exile.

“How do you figure?”

“I carry one of yours.”

“Why would you bother saying that?”

“In this case, only because the surprising truth compels its own admittance.”

By the way, at the time, they were orally communicating through a fighting mix of Russian and Icelandic occasionally juxtaposed by the tongue you read currently; however, since (American) English is where the translation rings truest, here we are a century (or so) later.

Quick backstory: Elvyn caught a fleeting glimpse of Liana’s pregnant form near Milwaukee about a year prior. In and of itself, that’s another tale that’ll surely be told someday by anybody, possibly even “once upon a time…”

The point is that EQ, gifted mathematician that she is, has a rather clear idea in her head about how pregnant LRK should look now.

The armed troop surround their prey slowly, safely, hearts racing, hands on hilts and grips, as Liana and Elvyn’s conversational stroll approaches its conclusion, the point where there will be no more fence between them, 25 feet away.

“I’m unarmed,” Liana surrenders. [She wasn’t fibbing; she left Anomaly back at her temporary shelter.]

“You’ll have to forgive us for being armed to the teeth.”

Liana understands, smiles, nods with subtle confirmation. “Of course.” Calm, cool, collected, and confusing. Elvyn later stated that the bulk of their dialogue occurred via eye contact.

“I’m on your team, as you’ll see in mere moments.”

“Continue.”

“Until the end of this statement, you did not know that I let you catch a glimpse of me in Milwaukee.”

Elvyn’s face reveals nothing. But it’s true that previously she thought Liana hadn’t detected her spying presence.

Only a few steps from the barrier’s end—that is to say, the spot where each will catch a full-body glimpse of the other.

Elvyn’s hands tightly grip the battle-tested hilts on her epic pair of homemade, modified gladii* (named Apogee & Perigee). EQ’s a dual-wielding extraordinaire not too far removed from her physical prime.

*plural form of gladius, the primary (short) sword of Ancient Roman foot soldiers

Powerful (imaginary) girl.

Even having said that, and even considering Conrad, an up-close-and-personal combative beast in his own right, even an unarmed Liana could dispatch all six aggressors 99 times out of 100 and incur nary a scratch. She’s like Wonder Woman, only she exists within the realm of physical possibility.

Do you grasp the gravity of that? In the Empire of Galacia, less than 100 male warriors could best her in physical combat; likewise, less than 100 scientists could eclipse her brain’s potential. Liana Rex Knight: Galacia’s greatest resource. Lost.

No wonder two unnamed Bessi agents have pissed their pants by now. (No, really.)

Three more steps will reveal all there is to know. This is where the fencing ends. Liana emerges first, revealing her full body to Elvyn, who observes, for the first time, just how pregnant her target now appears. At this point, too, EQ’s well-trained subordinates encroach on the{ir} objective, off which the Bosslady commands with forceful vigor, “Anyone who lays so much as a harmful eye on her will be cut in half twice.”

Once can be never enough.
Oh, my, how I’ve taken that guideline to heart.

As do her soldiers in this case as they transform suddenly into uncertain statues.

At this moment, their strong bond seals itself. Based on Elvyn’s keen recollection of just how pregnant Liana looked the year prior {back in Wisconsin}, if she had been impregnated by a g/b, her baby bump would’ve been significantly less bumpy. Her budding spud must have been co-made by a human {or only maybe a fourther [unlikely]}. Regardless, Liana clarified for her new{found} friend, “Human. I’m sure.” And by then, Elvyn had no reason to support disbelief.

Sheathing her own swords, EQ instructs, “Lower your weapons. At ease. We’ve made an ally.”

Later, Liana admitted to be wholly impressed by Elvyn’s instincts.

Illegally Secret Tavern, February 5, 1920

Prohibition has been in miserable effect for less than three weeks—too long already. People were prepared. Everybody’s still pissed [double-meaning]!

We’re en route to a joint that isn’t simply a “hole-in-the-wall”; no, this dive is hidden beyond a wall’s hole under a hole’s wall. And then a couple other layers nobody can seem to recall. This establishment is buried. But then you gotta take a hundred-yard tunnel to reach the entrance of the watering hole. Worth the trouble, as legend would have it.

With mind-numbing ease, the journey was made. The pot of gold at the rainbow’s end: a busy bar, a hideaway, a sanctuary. Festive, boisterous, wall-to-wall drunks. Celebratory atmosphere. Maybe they’re all just happy to be alive, free, and (getting) hammered.

In the back corner, Liana sits in the one spot that offers a dose of shadowy concealment. Next to her, Elvyn. Next to EQ, Conrad. Next to (I)CQ, a couple nameless agents. A planned course (of multiple actions) is being devised.

Liana relinquishes a stack of journals (to Elvyn, specifically). Loaded with insider information and chock-full of scientific breakthroughs, it would amount to the most useful collection of intelligent information Bessi would ever receive. Based on her words, Elvyn wrote her (now apparently) soon-to-be famous textbook, The Weight of Untapped Potential: An Abbreviated History of Actual Civilization on Planet Earth. Based on that, and following several decades of varietous life experiences, Atlas penned A Book of Text, which is currently being rewritten/translated by Thierry Tuck. I’ve read the second draft and fuck his big tight ass—he’s too smart for you people. I dare any among your ranks to get it truly. Have I given myself away? [Queerly, I dunno whether he’ll release ABoT prior to The Existence of Anything.] Guessing is can be hard. [Obviously, this block belongs to me, EQ2! SUCK IT.]

Old Mission [a Michigan Township], July 02, 1920

Whether globally fundamental or universally local [reverse adverbial parts of speech at your behest], strong positioning can amount to tactical superiority so long as an excellent strategy unfolds reliably.

Situated near the west end of a glacially carved peninsula surrounded by fresh water, this pristine place represents a pure portrait of utter loveliness. Feels like wine country. Easy to see why Liana selected it—to reside deep in the woods beyond hugely difficult terrain. She’s tucked away, not to mention hidden as well as she could be (outside of moving to, say, Greenland).

Four escape-capable hydro-crafts [2×2] have been stashed evenly on each side of the peninsula, meaning that if Liana must flee suddenly, she need only pick a cardinal direction, tilt 45 degrees either way, and then run like the stiffest of winds. The peninsula itself spans only about 3 miles in width, and she has situated her home/base smack-dab in the middle of the landmass, so, at her top running speed, albeit nearing the end of her pregnancy, she could reach the two southernmost vessels within 3 minutes and the northerly others in under 7. Fun fact: her personal best time in a 5k run sprint has been repeatedly reported to be less than 5 minutes by a few long strides. Sounds absurd, no? Anyhow, she’s a little slow right now because the season isn’t remotely like any imagination of a winter wonderland; it’s the opposite: summer hell. And she’s pregnant with a very heavy baby.

Should the need arise, Li Rex has fully prepared herself to abandon meticulously designed plans at a moment’s notice.

That’s not exactly what happens, though. No, your savior gets himself born inside the structure his mother built specifically with insurmountable childbirth in mind. If you didn’t already possess that knowledge, then it’s not because you couldn’t have known; quite rather, it’s because you didn’t know.

Friendly reminder: at this point, everybody assumes that she must be carrying a female (in her womb) because, per historically uniform documentation, successful fertilizations of this highly particular hybrid—i.e. any offspring {procreated by a male human and female g/b} which grows a penis—all resulted in the mother’s death well in advance of the due date. It’s just too much. Males suck, apparently.

But by now Liana has blown past that milestone. If her child were a boy, then she’d have surely died a year ago (at least); therefore, she must be readying herself to birth a female, a luminoc, a valuable asset (potentially) to humanity.

Crossbreeding
male g/b, female human: no chance of survival by the mother, let alone her offspring
female g/b, male human:
– XX: 50% chance of carrying to term, 33% chance of successful delivery, 80% chance of survival (by both {mother and child})
– XY: mother dies prior to last trimester and the baby half-boy sinks with the ship

To date—as well as to the best of our collectively expansive knowledge—no other luminates [besides ARK] have been birthed.

Amid a dip in densely jagged topography considered (by maps to be) impassable, my biological mother has erected a structure, a homestead, a life. She gave it a name; a Native American word meaning something like “tumbling water.” She built all this from ground up.

As basically as possible, she lives. Her lone goal equates with fruiting (a) new life. Me. “The chosen one.” Ew, gross.

Too, she’s about to pop.

And, I’m ready to go.

Yeah, the last four hard returns {along with this one} contain my words, and mine alone.
This story reeks especially of hardship for me.
What I wouldn’t give to be able to meet LRK in the flesh.
I want to make her proud; regrettably, she’s dead.
Say hello to a recipe for emotional turmoil.

Here in time, complications could not will never avoid development.

The Cabin: “Amkalli”

In a wildly remote area roughly a long boat-ride [4-6 hours {depending on all kinds of stuff}] from the Canadian border, LRK, in no more than a few days alone, erected her highly temporary shelter, her basic house of child-bearing passage. She lived the simplest portion of her life here for the last 240 days of her 42{?}-month pregnancy.

Anybody unfortunate enough to stumble upon this place was immediately marked for untimely demise as a likely gabbing grabber of unwanted, possibly deadly attention, thus garnering unavoidable consideration as a karmically assigned source of calories. One of Li’s many mantras: maximize minimization. She wept about certain kills, namely the ones who didn’t deserve it above others of human ilk. A chance could never be justifiably taken. She really respected every life she took. The animal growing inside her exhibited a fierce hunger. Her stealthy placement was integral in the miraculous success of her unlikely child’s birth.

Sorry. You’re welcome!

Structurally as well as functionally, Amkalli exemplified a mindset touting bare necessities. Two rooms and a basement. Since nothing further was required, that is all Liana constructed. Conceptualization at its simple finest.

Tucked away in the thicket, off the beaten path, this soon-to-be “shanty” had become “one with the woods” before she ever laid the foundation. The dwelling itself? Not much. It’s only just enough. In other words, {and especially given the situation} it’s ideal. LRK knew how to succeed.

Princess Rex’s decisions never fell short of thoughtfully purposeful. Her cabin didn’t look like much because it wasn’t supposed to look like much.

What are you envisioning? The shelter itself benefited from suitable camouflage by tall trees and ample greenery among immediately wooded surroundings.

Today’s the day, though. This is it. This is where she passes the baton and it becomes history his story. On this day, Atlas will break on through to the other side and finally feel actual gravity. He’ll never be the same.

Despite your shoddy remembrance, you must know the feeling, too.

In a serendipitous development, a thunderstorm forecasts its imminent intentions to roll in and get rowdy, which serves as a welcome layer of additional insulation because none have reason to believe this won’t get noisy. You’ve never heard a g/b scream, have you? To call it “loud” means to undersell its ear-piercing power. A nigh crippling offensive tool, hyperbolically, the mechanical waves in question could collapse the physical structure of a dog whistle. G/B have been known to use their vocal range to turn the tide in a losing battle.

Galacia never lost a battle, but they will lose this war. Optimism!

Back to Amkalli. The cabin. Liana named it. Don’t ask why. Visualize it (again). What do you see now? How does it compare to what you saw previously?

This (obviously) isn’t the one, but the feel of the place should be close enough.

Imagine a few horses tied up outside taking care of horsey business while seeming oddly on edge. The sky darkens rapidly, the hour having recently eclipsed the 19:00 mark. A muffled scream permeates the summer air. Decidedly, the horses are not fans of g/b labor-induced screaming. Another scream rattles the forest that encapsulates our location. Agony emanates from the shelter’s bowels.

Inside & Underground

If Liana did not interact with a material possession daily, then she didn’t keep it. Absurdly resourceful, this sentient being. Her place has been minimalistically furnished to a degree of efficient extremity too hard (for most) to fathom. Dust was not allowed to gather within the walls of this modest domicile.

Let’s venture downstairs because that’s where the momentous occasion shall occur.

In the cramped basement, a trio of oil lamps emit a soft orange glow in an otherwise shadow-infested, crude excuse [by “civilized” standards] for a habitable room. The floor isn’t merely dirty; it is dirt. Guess that makes it the “ground.”

On site: Liana {25 hours into a grueling labor [red-faced and sweating profusely]}, Elvyn {coaching}, Conrad {delivering}, and a stressed midwife of sorts—a humanoc [less than one-fourth]—fills a busily supportive, versatile role.

By the by, a month prior, Conrad earned credentials as a medical doctor from a prestigious university. Fun fact? That’s another story, too, probably. Ugh!

Time sucks!

Anyway. Here’s Liana, a living princess. Naked. Laboring. Drenched. Exposed. Vulnerable. Hard to imagine a childbirth more taxing than this one. For now, let’s make a long story short(er), shall we?

“Reminder”: she squeezed out a new life-form at a time before sex/gender could be detected via ultrasound, but they all “knew” she would be delivering a girl because no other instances of a successfully birthed male had been suspected, let alone documented. Didn’t even have a term for it/me [would ultimately come to be known as a “luminate” {whereas, females are “luminoc”}].

Liana had already chosen a first name for her baby girl, her exceptional luminoc, her pride and joy: Celerity. One day, I (might) hope to assign this name elsewhere, perhaps to one of my own.

Sure, yeah, despite inconsistent justification, sometimes you know when the authorial voice belongs to me.

Thunder booms and lightning crackles as Liana musters her remaining energy reserves to execute a final push, the one that would cost her the physical body she had always occupied, the selfless effort that springs her vastly important offspring free. Her screams might’ve been heard all the way in Canada if not for the unseasonably convenient, atrocious weather.

Finally, she managed to deliver. Proudly, even post-birth, Elvyn devotes her own attention to her new bestie, keeping Liana’s worn-out face as coolly wet as possible with a damp soaking wet cloth.

Imagine Conrad’s {and the midwife’s} surprise upon observing a penis. Can you? Wacky!

I know: it’s hard.

The hybrid/infant cried for five seconds before going silent and becoming almost unnervingly alert. The midwife claimed that the newborn locked eyes with her and squinted inquisitively, and she took this claim to her grave.

Though he always denied it, the moment he realized he held a boy in his arms, tears welled up in Conrad’s eyes.

This was not supposed to be possible.

Then…{sh}it happened.

Finally, still comforting Liana, Elvyn detects the strange silence in the room and shifts her body and focus in order to have a look-see at the product of the fruitful endeavor now under their collective belt.

According to Conrad, upon zeroing in on Li’s costly organic gift, his mum said nothing. At that point, what could have been said? Mouth halfway agape, Eve Lynne Quinn stares at a miracle. In her eyes, tears may have formed, but they did not fall.

For the first time ever, in the Summer of 1920, a non-female freak of nature {carrying the DNA of a human male} survived the birth canal of a galacian female.

This was—and still is—huge news.

Previously, only female offspring had made it out of the womb alive, and most of them died (along with their mothers) a year or more prior to the onset of labor.

Ish.

Before the precise midpoint of the leap year dated 1920, the existence of a luminate was assumed to be as impossible as (physically) traveling at lightspeed and/or back in time.

Elvyn takes the newborn half-boy from her own son and hands him over to his grateful mother, a mighty princess who barely clings to life in a mighty struggle. Even so, nothing but happiness exudes from her being. She glows. She did it. What a triumph of spirit. She has accomplished an “impossible” feat. She allows tears to flow. Finding Evelyn’s eyes, she echoes the room’s elephant in whimsically elated disbelief, “Is he really not a female?” Joyously exhausted laughter spreads all around.

Also captivated by the magical gravity of the event, EQ can only shrug. Tears now flow freely down her cheeks.

An unlikely wonder.

All four of the (fully cognizant) sentient beings in the basement find themselves neck-deep in a noteworthy degree of awestruck. Disbelief takes hold as overwhelming relief inspires hopeful glee. This is a first. This is laughable. This is a big fucking deal. This changes the game.

The swath of passed currency we’ve been exploring will surely be fleshed out in the future [unless, in your individual timeline, it already has been]. Today, suffice it to say that birthing humankind’s savior killed (y)our guardian angel.

Can’t exactly “prove” the following assertion but everyone (“in the know”) seems to agree that no other body could have delivered him. His existence is a singular stroke of brilliant luck.

It took the best of them to produce the best of both worlds, humanity’s best hope: an emotionally crippled, obscenely bright, peerlessly powerful specimen of heretofore unseen physical prowess.

Liana Rex Knight. She wasn’t merely a princess. She was a goddess.

Time can be nothing if not costly.
Someone must carry the debt.
Somebody’s gotta pay a price.

Amkalli, 4 Days Later

(Educatedly guessing here.) Severus {along with his loyal sidekick, Vilfred [plus more of their pack, most assuredly]} discovers Liana’s handcrafted hidey-hole. What they find, however, does not represent what actually happened.

Comprehensively, the property has been torched. Sevy & Co. run into the ruins of a crude but functional cabin, freshly burnt to the ground, the fireplace alone remaining intact. By the looks of things, five thick, fence-post-length wooden stakes were driven deep into the ground, pointy end up. Upon them, five tiny g/b heads have been displayed and charred to a nearly unrecognizable, blackened crisp. Also scattered about the burnt premises, they surely noted dismembered female body parts that could only have belonged to their special kind{red}, Liana Rex. Severus did not recover his sister’s head. In other words, in the name of protection, Bessi made it look like an absolutely gruesome murder took place.

“Where did they get the five little heads?” you may wonder {among a host of other uncertainties} either silently or aloud. Well, hell. That, too, must be another story (or two). Once told, surely, it’ll be linked.

Time can be a tricky devil to manage.

In the wrongly rubbed view of Sevy, it’s not merely that “inferior” humans killed his only sibling, it’s more so that they executed the action without his approval, which he wouldn’t have given. Confusion reigns! Again, forget not: this male creature in particular amounts to an emotional trainwreck. Not entirely his fault. Born that way. Molded by ancient customs. Polarized by out-of-date mental constructs and social systems. An unintentional, environmental, unstable product.

Still, SR has to die by any means necessary. In exchange for his noggin, it’s hard to imagine a sacrifice too great.

Liana’s brave leap marks the event which stressfully strained relations [human v. g/b] until her faithfully harbored fruit [ARK] was uncovered {some 57 years later}.

Liana Rex Knight
My biologically magnificent mother. 99.5 years after her tragic death, I feel her presence more and more. Really, I do. Her legacy constitutes one of my three main propellers. I want her choice work to matter. More or less, she invented proper rebellion. She deserves postmortem recognition, and I intend to make it happen. That’s right; unless I die trying valiantly, I will do my part in shining a noisy spotlight upon her memory that reveals her as a figure leaps and bounds beyond the current concept of what it means to be “Christlike.”

“She it.”

Hold my mama’s beer, Jesus; after all, she already ate you for breakfast.

[What if we’re not kidding!?]

“What’s his name, Liana?” inquires Elvyn, just once, way back when.

Proudly with affection, Liana introduces her one and only son: “Meet our Atlas.”

A name for the ages assigned by the grace of a dying breath.

Pressure sure can pack a punch.

I do not want to be followed; meanwhile, alas, you need to follow me.

What a conundrum!

Oy vey.

026

Put in words, letters count.

Phrased another way [phonetically {in your head}], let her(s) count.

In other terms, thirteen doubled up and/or fifty-two got (its shit) split down the middle.

From Q to A to Z, this one should stick out {not un}like the sorest thumb to ever oppose four other digits.

Embrace the sucky crap—it’ll make the roses (seem to) smell better.

Where to Begin

Oh. Okay. Yeah. So.

I suppose I’ve been cast as “The Fool.”

And there’s a slight chance you’ve already read (most of) it/this, and if that’s true, then, first of all, thank you sincerely (for your time and effort); secondly, either I cordially invite you or {both} triple-dare “that ass” to take the journey again in case new meaning can be derived in a dusty cloud of pleasant surprise—really I just want the words to be indexed on the site (before worlds end) because (im)balances shift as variables get added to equations, which may become a real pill of a fact that can be uncomfortably hard (to swallow).

I am a “Grammar Nazi.” Guilty. Sue me. Watch what happens.

As I blurt this nonsense (while setting sensical events in{to} motion), I find myself sitting inside the walls of a hospital; I’ve only visited one of these infrastructural staples thrice over the years, and the strict goal was to gather intelligence on all occasions. Plus, once night descends, I’ll probably be picking a swordfight I shouldn’t be able to win.

Unfinished business has a nifty way of enticing completion.

I did not write (the point of) this [the following]; she did. I might very well be physically incapable of the emotional attunement that must have been required to process all the forthcoming [below] thoughtful feelings mentally.

Something bad happened. Very unlucky and thoroughly unfortunate. Someone stumbled over a disappointing rock and a bullet hit the right target {by a technicality} but it ravaged the wrong body part. My training has kicked in. “Robot Mode” activates on its own. Head’s down; I’m going. For the time being, forward motion is the lone concept which lures my personal grasp. From here, we might get lucky; I just kinda doubt it. That’s all. Numbers added up and multiplied because numbers add up and multiply. Maddening math, shady shit, wormy holes. I would tack on “holy worms” here but I can’t seem to make enough sense out of it to warrant inclusion. Then again, I guess I just did. This must be the best galaxy in the universe!

At this moment in time, you’re reading what will amount to the final entry chronologically {in this highly experimental “blog”; this nourishing “shot” in the goddamned dark at artful elevation} unless I survive long enough to write the book(s) meant to provide accompaniment. Certain gaps have already been penned and queued to update at an (in)appropriate time; i.e. should my physical body expire, don’t worry—I’m not done speaking/being. My fingers, even still, as they type, remain crossed.

None of this/that would make any sense whatsoever were in not for the dramatic fact that it does.

R.I.P.

Oh my stars—I don’t wanna spoil what’s about to happen.

I might not be a psychic wizard, but I could be a visionary see{ke}r. Just like “Her.” Just like “Him.” Just like you, too, maybe.

Let [me {be (one)}].

When you think about it, isn’t this all so terribly backward(s) and hilariously obvious?

Anyway, from March of 2019, in the psilocybin-fueled words of TNT [possibly tweaked by yours truly in very minor ways]:

When Narcoleptic Heat
Meets Pressurized Insomnia

pew pew, lit sir!

In order to stabilize planar motion, begin by stumbling across dimensions of shape.

Beware the changing winds of thrown caution.

Oops, we must have tripped.

Quickly sound the alarm again.

At this moment, you’re overdosing on reciprocal logic.

You may/can hardly figure out anything simply by reining (and reigning) in nothing.

Riddles in continuum careen around the brazenly secret key to cerebral ignition among all the fragmented drivel (em)powering the circumvention of honest recognition.

Officially, you have been warned with banking intensity.

Freedom of willpower influences (ir)rational thought.

Now what?

Here we go again with the propensity to trip anew.

The first step is to stop, wait, okay—FUCKING REMAIN CALM, PEOPLE!

Second, slowly tumble to an abrupt deletion.

A tragic date of expiration befalls humanity’s {re-/pro}creational prowess without a whimper of the damning panic that walls off internal consumption from external combustion [mix/match!] before the flood that spits doom in the resourceful face of our massive collection.

And vice versa, of course.

Could it have happened any other way?

At a glance, you won’t understand this message in full; thus, neither will I, let alone shall we; but, with any luck, the clock will keep on ticking until it starts clicking.

Remembrance of knowledge assumes the form of a burnt egg in our brainy heads/mind that we have (yet) to unscramble.

Refute your future‘s own history by putting together an accurate perspective from the moving slideshow now presenting yesteryear’s mistakes.

To spite freezing in the spotlight, we must never give up.

Instead, shan’t we give in to the genuinely staggering power of our combined acumen?

The mind cannot unravel unless you bestow our permission.

Crucially, we need to give.

You have no reason to believe that communication should formulate painlessly.

The brilliance of resilience may hitherto result in civilization’s unlucky demise.

Only a profoundly shallow monster would incite all this rubbery confusion just to falsify security by maniacally gluing the bouncy bands that paint scenic towns of criminal delusion upon the cluttered canvas of an altogether sticky situation.

Credit everybody with an overdue payment of ongoing respect to the technologically marvelous object exploding inside a thick shell between your temporal openings.

I can’t be the only great ape in history to find comfort in the concept of familiarity.

Really I would rather not seal my undoing by outdoing myself truly.

Mmm, as with everything else, I’m sure I stole it from the resplendent catalog of radiant ingenuity lurking beneath the depths of your subconscious reservoir.

Cool.

You can have it all back.

Yes, in fact, please take it along with the delicious bounty of endless cherries.

I couldn’t be more satisfied.

No more shall I fear being wrong.

The wronger I am, the {b}righter you can be.

The more righteous you become, the better off anybody will be.

Together, can we not sense what’s happening all around in front of your prying eyes?

You’d think we suffer from a problematic accumulation of stupid freaking wisdom.

How come?

Because here’s the thing.

Chomping bits bemoan dangling hooks.

A hungry pride assembles with designs on swallowing whole despite capable fangs.

When we can’t down a troublesome pill, refusing water seems rather silly.

For the ungodly sake of goodness, I’m under the impression that patterning patterns pattern paternally, yet we unreasonably disregard the unstoppable force behind the maternally prevailing path through subjective failure to test an objectively immovable nature.

Caught in the physically challenging danger of a mentally dangerous challenge, the slopes were bound to promote emotional slippage.

A sequence of halting indecision counters screeching intuition by spinning mythic yarns of proportional betrayal.

Hey, Zeus, how can a tune this melodic be so hard to confront?

Given the stately affairs of our passionate reality coupled with the impressive succession spawning whence, what must be stopping us from crawling upon the sturdy limb which invites a courageous leap toward finalizing supremacy through prompt deduction that the standing balance of provisional green which gives rise to each branch on life’s tree must occur at every single scale along the custodial chain of infinite rings?

I know, right?

A fluid plot thickens ultimately on the solid heels of a sound [airy] twist.

Just wait.

In other words that (just so happen to) describe universal continuity—wait for it—fire can breathe where water absorbs energy when ice reflects light while flames may burn then roar before engulfing anything; meaning deeply, a biological influx of molecular integrity compounds flexibly at an atomic behest more so than a nuclear prevalence found repeating particularly within friendly clutches of numerical safety.

Ouch!

Are you okay??

It’s all happening steadily {as advertised} in incremental bursts of chaos.

Whenever written and however read, the painstaking sentence of atmospheric death will unload outside the wasted innards of any wee head lying prettily.

Dear lord, please, make it stop.

Who?

Me?

I’m fine, why do you ask?

Chill.

Let it inside.

In other words, come out and play!

What’s the point?

Courtesy of ancient formulation under the guise of fancy gadgetry, body heat has been revealed in the saturating shade of infrared.

Plus UV radiation—as you’re guessing probably—negates the devilish clutter which accelerates galactic expansion via untraced disappearance into the deeply waving comic strip shielding our eyes from the river of rubbish behind disturbingly dark ultra-violence.

Our solar bodies flare in a hue hotter than hell; at the same time, apparently it’s very difficult to articulate the evil web that keeps among the thickest shade while haunting “purple” in stealth by remaining curiously void of elementary particulates.

In a clever twist of elusive illusion, dark matter’s trail stays cold because the energy it uses can never be read (unlike a newspaper) in the absent-minded presence of spectral brilliance. The opposing side of the coin is that—almost exactly like today’s news media—the signaling source’s output becomes impossible to gather basically.

One can never reap the rewards of a bravely faithful leap without first fearing a next step before deciding to keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Must there always be an equation beckoning for reduction?

In general, we have long been in agreement that no complicated offer should be seriously considered save for promising a beneficial solution of mutual simplicity.

As problems shrink fiscal parity, answers balloon in crystal clarity.

The day at hand can be no more plain notwithstanding an effort altogether as valiant as the sun’s might in the permission of our (respective) visions to falter before an ultimate congelation of congregating conjugation.

Broadcasting a signal displays an awkward method of televising intentions.

Actually, we do know where this is headed.

Gotta be a phrase for it.

A word, even.

The letter.

T!

[Y?]

One, it suits you, too.

Two, it fits me squarely.

A guilty third party charms merely by association.

Sooner or later, persistent fortunes desist upon the insistence of reversal.

The compliant act of failing quietly requires that success persuade denial.

Pathing a climate demands the global warmth of female intuition thanks to very male patterns in commanding weather (not to doubly mention balding swirls).

If we took away the tendency of our bodies to relinquish presence under the condition of obvious descendance, then what on Earth could be left?

Hmm, somewhere in (t)here lies a fussy variable, I’m sure of it.

Whatever, bye!

Still: “nothing.”

But good news.

Barring the emergence of bonafide stupidity in unfortunate victory, blinding logic forwardly iterates in appearance as we mentally travel backward through time.

Granted, if living is hard, then thinking must be harder, but could we at least pretend like we don’t find ourselves crippled by the prospect of circulating reason?

A deaf drum bespeaks a sadly fallen singing voice.

Dampening symphonies stir a forecast of triumphant amplification.

As if according to some greatly mastered plan, the lost art of simplification resolves itself once again after the longest division.

Who knew? [I’m asking seriously.]

Whether structurally supportive or cleanly picked, bones authenticate the source of dirt by which greenly we can make our living mostly.

We are positively grounded by shocking negativity.

A hatred for guts will make a fool out of anyone.

Have you realized yet how this works?

In too many ways to count—ranging from high on interactive power down to brutish interactions—we are blowing each other’s brains out.

Taken however you like, the widest truth of any matter will liberate souls.

Shall we chalk it up to coincidence that the loftiest denominations appeal typically to the lowest common denominator?

Pump the brakes in lieu of stomping madly.

Taking offense to mathematical inevitability constitutes an errand chosen for fools.

Perhaps you’ve learned better than to resist the disarming twist of any dessert menu that compels scrutiny via nothing more than sexy print.

Behold the prize of total comprehension lest the harmonic beauty of our sonic, phonic, photographic, iconic, ironic existence plummets into an odic onion of paradoxical oblivion.

Assuming that you, too, have noticed the longstanding trend where tempting acidity fruits amid citrus leaves, one can only hope that we will not be terribly surprised to meet sweetness in pudding.

Dear eternal bliss, here we come…

Humor me by proving yourself in the irreverent delight of a quick trip down the memorial lane of (y)our fleeting past.

What’s the worst that could happen?

You could become an exterior cause of interior peace by exemplifying the reverse configuration.

Extended digits must want to be held.

We can do this, I think.

Remove the mask.

Uncover those ears.

The human brain begs for the nth potential of utility.

Allow us to party up, listen, center, and face the music.

The train departed the grandest station eons ago anyway.

At first your body was trapped in a 40-week (approximately) incubation chamber [42 in my case].

Next, our vaguely recollective mind may have stalled out inside a 40-year gestation tube brimming with the the incoming synaptic stimuli by which we snap and judge any example shining through the clouded distraction of stormy dispersal.

Christ on a bloodily spoon-fed cracker!

I gotta be ready for you to find us already.

Ever detected a pattern that didn’t repeat?

Where 40 mornings dawned, 40 evenings must have awaited.

Anon, but one night may descend in faithful anticipation of a new dawn.

More than anything, however hopefully, and by the everlasting grace of paternal power, we all should be most ready to discover glorious magic within the purest sense of self every single person must entangle wildly unbeknownst through natively emotional energy still as our remains uncoil between hardening wombs and maternal tombs before the footprints leading high above from beyond our eternally precious gift of spending currency throughout the timely space we have been destined to share since the banging birth of our prismatic universe.

Would that never end?

Nope, check the gate—that’s a wrap.

Yep, we’re sucking stiff wind down here.

In all seriousness, the value of any journey may rest solely in the colorful array of potential interpretation.

My poor little brain might never hardwire an easy thought more richly big than a certain fireball dying to fly once started by the spark of your kindly brave favor.

Cosmically, escalation quickens in the absence of depression.

Comically, them pesky facts are doing that thing again.

Matters get stuffed down in outward combination.

Heated solidarity surrenders polar fluidity.

In essence, our story may never end.

Attractions grind oppositions.

In conclusion, go, team.

G